I’m currently listening to Godspeed by Frank Ocean. If you asked me why I’m listening to it, I’d probably tell you it just randomly played while I shuffled a random R&B playlist or something. But to be honest, a friend loves his songs a lot and I wanted to listen to a few of them to know which ones I’d like (other than Pink + White of course). Here’s to hoping they don’t see this piece/rant for at least a month.. or two.
It’s 1:30pm and I got home about 30 minutes ago from school. It’s raining at the moment, but not as heavy as when I had to run down my street with the lingering fear of somehow slipping and falling. I’ve never had a public incident like that before, but I can imagine myself crying as people console me. Knowing me, it’ll be less about the fall and more about them being present to witness it.
Maybe it’s the weather but I feel like having goat meat pepper soup with very hot rice. Either one can be hot, but I need it hot enough to clear my nostrils and probably make me cry. I enjoy it better that way. Is that weird? I’d probably get fayrouz to go with it. That’s my go – to drink for pepper soup ever since I fell in love with it.
I ran into a friend while walking out of school earlier. It’s so crazy how shy I can get. I doubt it seemed that way to them though. Idk. It’s ironic that I want to be a journalist.
I still think I’m a good conversationalist though. It just depends on a lot… The person(s) involved, my mood at the time, the other people who may be present and so much more. I guess I eventually have to learn how to be a good conversationalist in any situation.
In this particular instance, I probably would have loved to talk to them a little more. I know I’d feel comfortable three minutes into the conversation, but we were both with other people and we couldn’t just push them aside.
I think I feel that way (shy and awkward) when I don’t get to see the person involved very often, even though we may talk frequently on social media.
Just like pepper soup, Bolè is probably my comfort food. I had to restrain myself from walking to the bolè joint right outside school. My God! The lady’s bolè is good.
It’s funny how these cravings come at the time I’m broke. Like choose a better time bro, like the start of the month of something. Not when I’m on my last 5k which apparently is meant to get me to the end of the month. Lmao. I made bad financial decisions (as always) but there’s nothing I can’t overcome y’know.
I will never not get flustered when I get compliments from pretty ladies. What do you mean, my skin is so pretty? Have you seen yours babe???! A girl in another department in my faculty said that to me earlier today and I almost melted!
These compliments slap more when it’s an aspect of yourself you’re insecure about.
God dey create mehn!
I watched Inside Out 1 last night at home and I want to go to the cinemas to watch the second part so badly! It doesn’t help that it’s also when I’m broke I want to do that! Wo! Who am I kidding, I’m too busy for that right now. I’ll just wait till it’s done showing at cinemas.
I really loved their portrayal of our emotions as humans and how we have to feel certain emotions to be able to feel some others and create core memories. Like how sometimes we get sad, but are comforted by friends or family and those moments are sort of ingrained in our minds. When we think of those bad moments later on in the future, we’ll also think about how those friends or family members helped us get through it.
I heard Inside Out 2 has a lot of new emotions like Embarrassment, Ennui (which I had not heard or used since my Spelling Bee days and I look forward to it) and I can’t wait to see how they’re expressed too.
For the past two weeks, I can say I’ve enjoyed every single lecture I’ve attended. A huge reason for that is probably because I love what I’m studying (Journalism in case you forgot) and don’t feel like I’m being forced to study it. This is also me trying to motivate myself to start the 10 – page assignment I was given today. It’s a research on the political debate that took place shortly before last year’s national election. If you have any pointers, please contact me.. somehow. I’ll be seeing a lot of our President’s face for the next one week, but will also get to see Peter Obi’s face, so it’s not as bad. I can’t help but imagine how Nigeria would be if he won. Omo!
I’m going to publish this in a few minutes and try not to edit so much. The outcome of too much editing will be you (beautiful/handsome reader) never getting a chance to read this.
Please don’t be like me, turn off that fan/AC right now. The weather’s way too cold for that. Drugs are really expensive. I’ll try to take my own advice…
Arrivederci! ¡Adios! Tschüss! Au Revoir!
Goodbye, till I write again 🫶🏽
